Sometimes, when on an airplane, the flight is smooth and we coast to our next destination with ease. Other times, when in flight, we hit a bump or two, jolting us a little. Then there are the times when turbulence takes us for a ride, tossing us around. It is in these moments turbulent moments, that I practice coming to my centre. I breathe and trust. I need to connect to my place where I feel grounded and anchored.
This year I've been on a rollercoaster ride of turbulence, being tossed around. Kind of like being in a blender. I've been knocked around, stirring up the sedentary to the surface. Testing me. As the dormant rises to the surface, it's teaching me. I have learned so much, helping me heal and then learning to let go. Like waves crashing onto the shore, I keep getting hit with more. With all of this change, I am continuing to find my way back into my heart, my centre, with a little more ease and a little less chaos. That doesn't mean it hasn't knocked me off centre! My fears still get triggered. I still get frustrated and angry. I still lose sight of trust and get tossed into self pity. The gift is that I now can see this while I'm in it, and can just allow it to move through me.
I've learned that in this turbulence, I'm not alone. I can reach out to others. I can move out of myself to listen to the turbulence in other people lives (its not just me!). I'm beginning to REALLY understand what self-care really means. It's amazing what happens when I just let go. When I can move outside of myself and my fear, and move more towards trusting and having faith. It is amazing what happens when I just let myself FEEL all the ugly and messy feelings. Instead of turning away or retreating inside, I look turbulence in the eye, and take steps to walk towards it, and then through it. Coming through the storm to the other side, I am prepared for the next challenge that life dishes up. Each time, with a little more humility that the last.
As I connect to my breath, I allow stillness to settle in once again...until the next time.